| Location | Pennsylvania |
| Age | 7 years |
| Date of Birth | 6/1996 |
| Date of Death | 3/2004 |
| Visitors | 1,831 since 15/03/2008 |
| Creator |
*~*Cierra Angelica Lugo*~*
June 15, 1996 ~ March 17, 2004
Cierra was diagnosed with Stage IV Neuroblastoma on June 13, 1999. It was two days before her third birthday. She underwent a phase three experimental study including numerous rounds of high dose chemotherapy, two stem cell transplants, full body radiation and localized radiation. Cierra went into remission!
After three and a half years of remission, she unfortunatly relapsed December 30, 2002. At that point, we were told there was no chance of a cure but decided to continue on with treatments. She received many more rounds of lower dose "comfort" chemotherapy which gave her relief from her pain but never put her back into a state of remission. I researched and enrolled her into clinical trials but nothing helped.
As the cancer spread and took over her little body, we never gave up. Cierra deteriorated quickly as the cancer spread through her bones, liver, lungs, and stomach. March 16, 2004, Cierra became very comfortable and slept well. I soon realized that Cierra was transitioning and would soon become my Angel.
We slept together in the living room that night. The next morning, Cierra woke up at 6:00am. She was breathing fast and looking at me, although she was unable to communicate at that point, when I asked her if she needed me, she squeezed my hand. I picked her up and held her in my arms, rubbing her head, hugging her tight and for the first time ever, told her it was o.k.to go to Heaven. I talked to her about Heaven and how much I love her for the next fifteen minutes as she closed her eyes and passed away in my arms at 8:00am.
I miss my baby more than words could ever express and as time goes by, it only gets worse. This page is to maybe help other mommies going through this same tragedy, not feel so alone. I hope it helps me to express myself and get my feelings out as I'm at the end of my line and ready to try anything to move forward.
Heaven's Special Child
A meeting was held quite far from earth,
It's time again for another birth.
Said the Angel's to the Lord above,
"This child will need much love."
So let's be careful where she's sent
We want her life to be content.
Please Lord find a mother who...
Will do a special job for you.
She will not realize right away
The leading role she's been asked to play
But with this child sent from above,
Comes a stronger faith and a richer love.
And soon she'll know the privilege given
In caring for this gift from Heaven...
Her precious charge so meek and mild,
Is surely Heaven's Special Child!"
♥ In my eyes you're by my side ♥
♥ In my ears you are my guide ♥
♥ In my mind you touch my hand ♥
♥ In my head I understand ♥
♥ In my heart you're always here ♥
♥ In my home you're always near ♥
♥ Death may take but cannot part ♥
♥ For you are always in my heart ♥
XxX Have a lovely peaceful day ~ Love Always ~ Jane XxX
Quietly walk along with an angel
and you will always feel so safe
for an angel will forever hold you
in their hearts warm embrace
An angel will walk beside you
yet times take your hand to lead
they are always there to lean on
whenever you have their need
Angels can keep us floating
if we are drowning in rough seas
they will help navigate us through
when summoned to our pleas
Should you feel lost in darkness
their light will show you the way
angels give us the right direction
when our course has gone astray
Walk with an angel and you'll feel
all the love one spreads on earth
an angel beside you is a blessing
there is no measure of their worth
Love Always ~~ Jane...x♥x
Through the gentle breeze and the stormy seas
your love comes flooding through
a sense of your surroundings
letting us know that it is you
A heavenly sky with sparkling flames
becomes visible in the skies
appearing is your shadows
as you turned to wave goodbye
A mellow whisper in my ear
thanking all for what's been done
and letting us know that you're o.k
as you glide towards the sun
No matter what the outcome
no matter how much we cried
you're letting us know that you're still here
it was only the body that died
For memory holds no boundaries
everyday it is kept alive
it gives us warmth and energy
that encourages our days to thrive
Just keep on remembering me
in your shadows i'll walk with you
and guide you through your darkest hours
in everything you say or do
For absence cannot be changed for us
we accept what had to be done
we watch the skies very closely
as you glide towards the sun
When you reach your promised land
and the gates are open wide
it is there you'll find some comfort
and your tears you'll try to hide
As you settle in your new found world
you'll send a glittering prize
that will brighten up the darkest day
and bring a tear to our eyes
Thankyou for your presence
and for all the memories too
you left this world something beautiful
it was the fact that we had you
Always in my thoughts ~~ Love Jane...x♥x
Last night I had a crazy dream
a wish was granted just for me
it could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
or a mansion in Malibu
I simply asked for one more day
to spend just with you
One more day, one more time
one more sunset, i'd be satisfied
but then again, I know what i'd do
leave me wishing still for one more day with you
First thing i'd do is pray for time to stop
then i'd unplug the telephone
and keep off the T.V
i'd hold you every second, say a million I love you's
that's what i'd do with one more day with you
Love ~ Hugs ~ Kisses ~~ Jane...x♥x
Death can't touch a memory
can't chisel it from ones heart
as far as i'm concerned
you and I never did part
You are still with me in all I do
I see you in my minds eye
that smile still on your face
I have no need to cry
When things are sometimes said
I turn and look your way
I know what you are thinking
I know what you will say
So close are we still
and always will be
together because
death can't touch a memory
With Love To You ~~ Jane...x♥x
One gift, above all others
god gave us to treasure
one that knows no time, no place
and one that gold cannot measure
The precious poignant tender gift
of memory.....that will keep
of dear ones ever in our hearts
although god gave them sleep
It brings back long remembered things
a song, a word, a smile
and the worlds a better place.....because
we had them for a while
Love & BIG ((hugs)) ~~ Jane...x♥x
When you look into the sky
and see a shining star
think of me and send a kiss
i'm never very far
When you see the moonlight
dancing on the sea
feel a kiss brush on your cheek
thats a kiss from me
When the sun is bright upon the fields
and there's flowers everywhere
if you look a little closer
you'll see me over there
When the snow is falling hard
and sparkling on the ground
feel the flakes upon your face
and know that i'm around
when you see a glistening raindrop
or the grass all covered in dew
don't let your heart feel heavy
just remember 'I LOVE YOU'
Love ~ Hugs ~ Kisses ~~ Jane...x♥x
God sent me an angel from heaven above
it's filled with complete unconditional love
it watches and follows wherever I go
if i'm happy or sad this little angel does know
My life at this moment seems filled with despair
but this littlest angel is always right there
it lifts up my spirits, gives me a reason to smile
come sit me an angel, let me hold you a while
It climbs upon my lap and wipes away all my tears
one lok in those eyes wipes away all my fears
for in those soft gentle eyes theres something I see
which speaks to me silently 'you always have me'
As those soft gentle kisses bring a smile to my face
and a love in my heart which can't be replaced
it continues to tell me in it's own special way
of how much it loves me as it begins to say
'At night I will cuddle by your side while you sleep
my life is to love you, this promise I keep
i'll wake you come morning with kisses galore
you'll giggle and laugh and ask me for more'
'When sadness you feel or life lets you down
i'll do whatever it takes to wipe off your frown
i'll show you some tricks, i'll bring you my toy
or rest my head in your lap, if this brings you joy'
'If sickness should keep you in bed for the day
i'll stay right beside you, we don't have to play
and if going for walks is something you do
i'll be your companion take me with you'
I'll try hard to show you my love is so strong
i'll try only to please you, i'll try not to do wrong
if a mistake I should make, then I ask this of you
remember that angels can make mistakes too'
'I'll ask not much of you, it's for love that I yearn
because loves what god taught me to give in return
it's all unconditional and comes straight from the heart
and my promise I give you till death do us part'
'So this is my story one I wanted to share
of my littlest angel who's always right there
this littlest angel that i'm so thankful of
yes this littlest angel of unconditional love'
x♥x...Love Always ~~ Jane...x♥x
A last goodbye
a kiss to the wind
no one knows
the pain i am in
I ache to hold you
to kiss your face
and now you are gone
without a trace
But memories I hold
deep in my heart
my love remains strong
we shall never be apart
Fly with the angels
and feel no more pain
I will love you each moment
until we meet once again
Love Always ~~ Jane...x♥x
~~ Teardrop of Rememberance ~~
When at first you left
the tears I cried poured from
a well of grief inside
this well seemed so deep, so dark
it stripped my spirit bare
I bathed in constant tears
that could not sooth my souls despair
awash with tears of grief
I lookes to the heavens above
and saw a light so very close
this light gave way to thoughts of you
sweet memories to hold forever dear
now tears flow from joy and love
and warm my heart with tenderness from above
I cry a tear a tear of rememberance today
because you were special to me in every way
~~~ I will always love you ~~~
Love ~ Hugs ~ Kises ~~ Jane...x♥x
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